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Day 50 – Amnesia

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It’s like I’m operating in manual mode right now and everything that I do has to be preceded by a “Why am I doing this?” and “justified”.

I suppose these questions are now necessary given how I’ve gone through much of my life not asking questions, and not asking - and not giving - myself what I really want.

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Popped into Borders looking for a book on a lifesaving device (which had SF laughing hysterically over the phone all the way from Jakarta – she’s nuts, I tell you) and ended up reading another book on life coaching. Everything the author wrote seemed so clear and obvious, it resonated with me.

And now I’m feeling so strangely restless, as if there are all these things I want to do – but I just can’t figure out, or rather remember (???), what they are. Is it my mind reminding me of all the things that I really, really want to do but never got around to?

What a strange feeling….

Anyway.

Today’s gone quite well, actually (aside from the usual morning routine of waking up with this vague sense of doom).

Tell me I’m not losing it; that this is just part of the process.

Written by The Intimate Stranger

December 3rd, 2010 at 10:13 pm

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